Self reflect.. hehe.. on ENGLISH

Well well... had been reading quite a number of post below and realised on how poor my language could be and the bundles of grammatical errors. Based on my memory, I had a memorable experience with an english teacher who taught me deeply on how to use the words, study from basics and encouraged me to talk in front of public which trained me into a person who knows how to speak and write at the same time. However, that was few years back. If i have not mistaken, it was in 2010 and now is 2013! WOw! 3 years! such a great difference it can make! That time, i managed to pass IELTS with 6.5 overall marks. I don't think i can do it now though! haha...

No wonder our university president always say, we don't learn language in just one day! It takes years to do it! Well, i took one year to brush up a little on my language yet, it went down to drain after getting into a chinese speaking university. Although our lecturer always remind us to speak in english and mentioned that this is an english speaking academy and not chinese but we just got used to it. As you know, friends to friends, we don't use english if our mother tongue is mandrin, right? yea.. And my essays are getting worst and worst! It feels like i have lost control of my language and i don't seemed to know how to write anymore :'(

Hmmnn... i think it's time for me to start an english course again! Haha! I'm kidding, don't have much time to do that now. Even academic books i don't think i can finish, not to mention about other extra curricular books!

Well time to continue on my academic studies! Tata! XD

Have a nice day everyone!

SMILE =)

something about life?...

well.. i can't believe that this time i'm writing, i've already finish my second sem and going for my 3rd sem soon. haha :) so it seems time is flying and we don't always realise something that has always been around us but once they're gone, then only we start realising... its kinda sad... i'm already 20 this year... and on my 20th birthday, i went for a movie alone. i was wondering... is it important to have people around u during our birthday? well... actually its just the way we see things.. i think, i should be glad that i've lived for 20 long years and whether there's someone there for me on my birthday or not does not really matters... well.. my friends and families have been there for me whenever i'm in trouble or whenever i need them, that is the important part right? so lets not talk about my birthday anymore, although all my family members and some of my friends do wished me but i don't know why, i still feel sad and happy at the same time.... hmmnn.. the movie that i saw was really nice.. its battleship! i'm sure most of us have seen it cause almost all my friends had seen it except me... XD

hmmnn.. thats how my birthday went through! well.. i'm going for vacation in universal studio tomorrow! that's consider my birthday present from my family! yay! can't wait.. but why my dad's friend children doesn't seemed to be happy at all.. hmmnnn... but i'm very excited! so this is life, there are always ups and downs in life, so we just need to adjust to it and be flexible about it =D

not going to talk so much for now.. but i'm going to suggest this song that i find its very nice... :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mZPjyWPYP7s&feature=share

I'm back!!!

Hello, i'm back! This time, i'm coming back as an Uni student and no longer a college student XD Haha =P hmmnn.. i guess u can see that i'm quite happy bout it. Actually, i'm very happy when i first got an offer from this uni, not that i would say that i'm not happy now, just that its not as perfect as i thought it would be, thats all.. Yet, i'm still very happy!!! After struggling for a year and a half, at last, i'm studying in Uni like everyone else! The feeling of someone wants you feels so good.. Its feels way way better than being rejected...

So, i had started my classes here and currently studying my first sem :) The whole batch has only 7 person including me.. Haha.. its kinda little, because this course is still very new in our Uni yeah.. but we are very close =D They are all nice people and that includes my housemates ^^ hhmmmn... what else, my classes? i only have to attend to 3 subjects this sem due to short sem. i was exempted for one of the sub so it became 2 subs. one of it doesn't require exam so now i ended up studying only one sub for exam that is next wednesday... ermm.. although i did study this subject before, but i still kinda blur about it. I don't know how the few of the sub topics are coming out and what it covers.. Its quite hard to understand... Next wed is my exam, i shall score it!! 

Next sem is going to be much tougher as i'm taking an extra subject, that is MUET, an english subject necessary for all malaysian students... How sad, it is an compulsory for my uni's student to get at least band 3 to graduate. So including this sub, i have all in 6 subjects and one co-curriculum to attend to. Next sem will be a very tiring sem and i think i cannot be as relax as i'm now anymore.. sad sad... however, i have my violin class here, it will cheer me up a bit :) He is a senior who joined the orchestra before and he is now my violin teacher ^^ he is a nice guy and very talented :) 

I guess thats how my Uni life for now :) Hope that next year will be a better year :) 

♥tyunn ^^

life has been tough these days...

hmmmnn... sometimes, i wonder, is it my problem or is it other people's problem...  and after thinking about my past.. Its like a sequence.. Things just happens and it happens again and again... I tried my best to avoid things like that to happen again but it never succeed.

Working hard was my aim this year, and yeah, i did get the results that i'm quite satisfied with. However, my other stuff, such as friendship, it didn't made it like how i imagined. So its fair that we don't always get what we want. But most importantly, i think i should have a change in my attitude and all the shyness that is in me.

I'm lazy, always thinking of doing something fun like watching tv for the whole day and get mad easily, and even said things that shouldn't say without thinking. These should all changed in time, but i'm what i'm, so its kinda hard for me to change these behavior that i had it for the past 18 years. However, strategies will come soon enough to make me a whole new different person, i hope.... because, you see... i'm a person who fails to plan so its basically plan to fail.. and even if i planned, i don't like following it... THAT'S ME! haha...

There's one more thing that i realised about my self, that is i'm always being envy about how others look and how i look. i always compare this and compare that. This made me even worst and this leads me to losing a lot of friends. May be this is because i'm always comparing my self to my brother, he is always the excellent one in my family and scored marks that i'll never scored. but this has to change too, i need to be a better person by not comparing to others and just try my very best in everything.

Of course, this is not all, i also cannot treat the person i love the way they should be treated with respect, for instance, my bf, i actually asked him to try to stay away whenever i saw my friends, my relatives or my family when we are going out together. I know this is cruel, but i cannot admit that he is my bf.. this is because my mother never did agree on me having a bf.. now the question comes, why did i even have a bf in the first place? why do i even accept him in the first place? I don't know.. i think i just need a person to lay on for a while and it became so unfair for him.

so basically, i think i have more weakness than strength after all.. haha... Hoping that things will change after i get into degree program, try to grow up, and stop being so naive and childish!!

things just happened

well, the unforgettable moment of all, happened in MAHSA. I thought i had a great room mate at first, cause she was my friend from Methodist since last year, but then i barely knew her cause she decided to leave after 1st sem. So we basically moved in and stayed together. At first, we were close, we hang out together with a bunch of friends, we had our meals together. Until one day, that i accidentally said the wrong thing that hurts my friends feelings which this girl is one of our friends and ended up, we are no longer friends. However, my roommate forgave me and continue being my friend. We had fights, just those small fights that we usually forgive each other after a while. Just after the first sem, i was quite close with a boy and i always had dinner with him instead of having dinner with my roommate. Starting from that moment, she started to treat me coldly and she said, it was my own fault that i don't appreciate people around me.. I do accept this statement and it is a fair reason for her to say that of what i've done to her. and i had no choice but to appologise to her and try to make things up with her... It was my fault all along. But there's something i don't really understand, why can't she try to understand my situation? I wanted to have dinner with her but i can't abandon him as he came all the way to college just to hang around with me and have dinner with me. I tried to ask him not to come so often, but... you know how when a person is in love, they would do anything... anything at all just to see the person they love cause they miss that person so much. Soon, this problem solved. We are once friends again.

However, this time, it did not last long. She annoyed me whenever she switch on the lights of the room early in the morning to study. It was not one two days, but it continued on for a week. That really pissed me off. Although i did say that i can sleep under the lights but not by switching on the lights while i was already dreaming in the sleep. but, i never mention this to her yet, she can sense that i was angry whenever i wake up every morning.

This one night, my friends and i are having a last minute preparation for the next day presentation for information technology subject. and so, we gathered in my room and we do our own work while chit-chatting. When she came back, she was quite pissed off seeing me bringing my friends into the room. After a while, she said that she feels like sleeping and hope that all my friends will leave. I asked my friend that had done her work to leave and the rest of us continue to finish up our work quietly. She was flipping here and there on her bed and starring at our working, asking what time is our work going to finish. the three of us was so quiet and we make less noise as we could and just do our work. the worst thing was she actually posted something very cruel in facebook and always saying that i'm putting on a drama. FINE!!! I've had enough! I'm a human, i had feelings! I'm not a soft toy that u could just play around whenever u like and just treat me as a slave whenever u want, hoping that everyone will suit you just for the sake of the way you live! Wake Up!!! Life has always been FAIR, like u said! I tried my very best to try things out with you, but it failed. i guess, our friendship ends here. Tata ^^ and so, we are like strangers now :)

new life, friendship and love

Its has really been a while since i last posted something here.. guess i really have been busy about my studies and lazy to type.. haha.. as usual.. lazy... it never leaves me since i was in primary.. anyway.. that wasn't the topic today. Life in Mahsa.. thats the topic.. when i tell people i'm studying in mahsa, people would straightly tell me, 'i've never heard about that uni before, where is it?' well people in this world, Mahsa is just next to University Malaya, so if you know where is UM, you know where is Mahsa.
Its exactly how other people imagined here would be, not that 'good'. but it certainly depends on individual. For me, its absolutely a NO NO.. but what to do, parents not that rich, can't send me to other Uni or overseas. so just have to stay in m'sia to continue my studies with Mahsa! Say, the lecturers are not bad, just some of them need some attitude adjustment, just don't scold us even though we don't know how to answer the questions.. overall, they are great people :) i love them! but remember, this is just a foundation level, the degree courses lecturer may not be this good! now, why do i say this college is not good even if i love the lecturers here. Its not just about the lecturers when you enter a uni or college, its about the people, the students!!! we need to get along well in a college so that we are comfortable and we can be ourselves. Sadly, i'm not, i'm not happy at all... why?
i did get along quite well in the class at first, i talk to everyone in the class, there's always laughter and smile but it seemed to be getting lesser and lesser lately.. thats how it was last year too, but that time, i still had my few best friend that i can talk to, or even ask questions that i don't know how to answer. Now? not even one, when i was in the class sitting with my friends, there are just limited person who i can ask, and they are all sitting far far away from me. I felt as if i've lost my friends, i don't even have a single friends that i could ask help from. I can't find any best friends here who can help me. I'm felt lonely sometimes but not anymore cause i already adapted to the enviroment which if i don't know how to answer, i will think, think and think until i get the answer. Yup! that the way to survive in the society nowadays, we can't always depend on others.
Thats the friendship part, the love part, yea.. i did found a guy who loved me alot and he touched me. so he is basically the one who i'm always with now. the only one i can depend on :)
thats all for now... ^^

♥ tyunn ^.^

quiz results for me ^^

Hello people, this is a quiz that i took that may help me to understand my self a little bit more and i wish to share it with you all ^^

Right Brain Dominant Student

You probably get bored during long lectures and prefer to take classes with a lot of freedom of movement and thought. You like to write stories and even tell stories about your funny experiences. You might be a little suspicious of other people's motives sometimes, but that's only because you can usually tell whenever someone is lying or when they're up to no good. You are a little on the dreamy side--or a lot. You plan books or movie plots but you don't always follow through on things you think about. You should work on that. You are fun and spontaneous, and probably active in sports or clubs. Your feelings run deep, and it shows. You have strong instincts, and you solve problems on hunches and feelings. You are artistic in some way. You can believe in things based on experience, without seeing scientific proof. You might be a finalist on Survivor some day, since you know how to read people so well, and you have great survival instincts.

* Am I really like this? I am still wondering, but some points, it got it right! 

If you wanna do some quiz like this too, go to this link that i recommend below :)

http://homeworktips.about.com/od/learningstyles/a/leftrightbrain.htm

♥ tyunn ^.^

YouTube - Yiruma - Kiss The Rain (Full Version)

YouTube - Yiruma - Kiss The Rain (Full Version)

I am so in to this song right now.. =DD

it just touched my soul while hearing this song..

LOVE it!!

the day before maths paper

tonight is the last night for me to study for tomorrow's maths paper. Quite nervous or very nervous and sleepy at the same time. That also includes the scary feeling inside me because i am afraid that i might end up like the trials, startled after reading the paper. So i am going to sleep after this and wake up earlier tomorrow morning to study on my worst subject, MATHS. Never feel this way before for maths but ever since i had a little problem thinking for the solution, i became worst and worst in maths.
On the other hand, my brother is coming back today with his best friend to stay over at our place for like a week. I don't really know who he is but my bro sure like to be friend with him, therefore, i am looking forward in meeting him in person. He is now flying back from Yogjakarta where the volcano erupt and by the time he is back at home, i am already asleep. My parents went to my grandma's because they said it'd be nearer to subang airport. And i am all alone at home now, quite lonely..
Most of all, the subject that i am worrying about is my maths paper tomorrow. Hopefully everything goes well tomorrow :)

Goodnight people and sweet dreams ^^

  

♥ tyunn ^.^

1st and the last

Scare was the first impression on my face after this incident. Guess what i did next? i actually came out of the car and apologise and apologise. May be this wasn't the best way of paying back what i've done wrong but i was really sorry and it wasn't on purpose. Then here comes the interesting part, the tire is inflated and i can't do anything about it. The worst part is that motorist keep pointing at me saying that ' how do you drive? why you drive so fast?' i was in silence of course because it was my fault in the first place.

Well, his wife fall down and she keep touching her waist saying that its very painful and the man also got some injuries but it was slight injuries from the way i see it. Then, i tried to fix the inflated tire on my own yet it was not successful as the car didn't have the appropriate equipment to change the tire. Of course, while doing this, the man non-stop scolding me. I was just gonna fight for my right that time but i was asked to shut up instead. The man is going to slap me when i talked back but he didn't do it. After finishing all the drama, my mom fetched both of them to the hospital. This was the worst private hospital that i've ever seen. Want to know why? We waited for 1 hour just to see the doctor and this is not even to do further check up or X-ray or something. While waiting, i went to the Dominos nearby. after ordering the set pizza, i sat down and pray for the couple and hope that they are ok. i pray and pray and pray. Thank god, my hope came true, the X-ray result came out as it was just a bruise that needed some ice on it to remove the pain. I was relieved, really relieved.

After finishing everything, we send the couple back at 10 departure from the hospital and they reached home at around 11. Well as for us, its one hour later. It was a long terrifying experience, although when i typed it out, it wasn't that long but trust me, if you are the one who experienced it, it was a long night. Well do you want to see my car? Its obviously not in a good condition ^^

♥ tyunn ^.^

  


   

exhausted... Halloween party

Too tired to type, if u have any questions, please leave a comment. thank you ^^

I'm Back!!!

Its been a while since i last write a new blog.. But, no matter how much i write no one really sees it or even care bout it.. So may be i will come by and blog once a month or something and not that often anymore =]
herm... lets start about how starting life again in college, it was fun and at the same time loads of homework. Not much time for me to think about how my love life going on but once in a while i still will wonder how and when only will i meet my prince. I really can't wait to see who's the unlucky guy who like a person like me. haha.. i guess its just impossible. haha..
Next friday will be McRaver and it would be something like halloween and mask party.. it is going to be quite fun i would say but sadly, i just don't feel like going so i didn't pay for it. =) I am helping to do the decorations and backdrop today.. it was a tiring half day... aahhhhh.... but it was fun and everyone were having fun as well ^^
we chat and laugh.. I hope this party will be a successful one cause i can see that everyone is putting so much of effort in it.
Besides, my brother is coming back next wednesday, i am happy and excited for his return but the problem is he would then be the one who is going to snatch the car from me or in another word, i would say i got less chance to use the car whenever i want. Most of all, i am still happy and glad to see him back after a year or  half year, i can''t really remember.
To be honest, in my heart, there's still something that doesn't feel right, i don't know why. It just don't feel right. I kept imagining going on a date with someone but i am still waiting. haha.. Having a hope that won't come true is just a foolish thing to do but i am doing it. haha..
i guess thats all for today, nytes... ^^

Unpredictable Life

the feeling of scared and terror are filling in my mind when i heard the story of one of my classmate explains about the death of one of the students in my college. Upon hearing his explanation, the first thought that came to me was Life is Unpredictable. May be this second of your life, god will take away your life. Consequently, this makes me realise that how important life is and we should really appreciate the people we love and the life that we are living now. May be some people think that life is so difficult to live on and they decided to suicide. However, they didn't thought that it would be so lucky to live than being dead in no choice.

 

Unimaginable Experience *Driving* woooo... scary...

i just got on my parent's car this morning and guess what? i am the driver ^.^
but, i guess i didn't get to know the car very well, so i had to reverse a lot of times in order to get the car out of my house and of course it was also under my parent's guidance. Driving used to be a very fun subject for me, however, after today's experience, i am a little bit scare of driving out alone.
Today was the first time i drove my parent's car, proton Wira. It is rather a big car compare to Kancil, which is the car that we used to get our license. So i wasn't really sure about the estimation and everything, i guess now i know how these people's feeling about driving test is totally different from the 'REAL' driving situation.
After a long story about my experience, let's start getting into the main topic. The main topic here is that i think i just bumped my car into a slope. At the first sight of it, i thought it was OK as i estimated it like what i did to the little Kancil that i used for driving previously. However, it didn't made it. and my tyre got stuck and can't even move and suddenly, i heard a "boom" sound. Ohh gosh.. i just started thinking whether i did broke the car or the bumper. In the same time, i nervously reverse the car and get it into place in front of my house.
Thank god, the car bumper just got some scratches and nothing else. *pheww* but later i saw some wires or something like that under the car, i don't really know whether its a normal phenomenon or i did broke something.
This is a very scary, unimaginable, and unforgettable experience! Hopefully, i won't get into any trouble anymore by driving this 'wira'.



Regards,
tyunn ^^

bowling n cooking n studying

woohoo!! this is what i had done today.. *see the title*
i really had fun today bowling with my ex-classmates =)
although i loose most of the match, but still i feel happy =)
haha... now i really feel my self and the existence of me in me..
cooking, yeah.. i cook for my family today, just a dish, which is the chicken.
i saw it from a cooking programme yesterday if i am not mistaken.. haha
Yes! i cook it, but when i slice the chicken into pieces, it is not cook and i have to fry it again.
so it can be consider as a failure.. ='( i never cook any dish with failure before, and this is the first..
how sad... But, i won't give up no matter what because cooking is my hobby and i love to cook!
Happy day and tiring day as well =)
Good night and hopefully today, i won't be having nightmares anymore =)

Regards,
tyunn ^^

Life of a teenage girl, or just being expressive..

i just wanna have everything new by now..
haha.. talking childishly without thinking at all..
well.. almost everything in this world can be owned by using money.
but just these three things i guess, that can't be buy using money.
1st : health, 2nd : love, 3rd : family relationships.
well.. honestly, i don't own the first two, the third? don't really own it, but also can consider as owning it.
why is love so important, and love can even change a person..
but, finding a person who really love you is indeed very difficult.
and today i found out something, even though u make up your mind to do something, like planning everything what u are going to do tomorrow, and write it in a paper, i am just NOT that kind of people who do that.
i am just a person who do what i want and anything i want.
so now u know how i failed to plan my work..
and in the end, i just manage to study one hour.
how dissapointing...
this just can't continue and i really have to do everything like how i planned, not just go and break everything.
i must get a solution for this soon, if not i really will be in big trouble.
oh gosh.. hopefully, my body will hear everything i say and do as i think!!!

regards,
tyunn =)

Glee is Awesome !!!

just watched GLEE just now! love the ending! love the song =)
just wanted to share this video with u guys ^^
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QcUnFL1AhPw&feature=related
its I am beautiful from Christina Aguillera =)

sophisticated feelings and thoughts

nothing much to talk about, but still, there'll be ups and downs in life right?
we can't really expect or plan everything and hope that everything will goes into order.
humans? what are humans actually?
humans are very complicated. don't find them interesting but i sure find them hard to understand, as humans grows up, there's a lot stuff running around in their head cause everything they do, they have to bear the consequences.
But does this apply to love as well? does love need to be think or reconsider?
is races and religion between people that important?
why do some people place race and religion over the person they love?
and humans are cruel as well, they would rather keep their feelings to hurt other people...
may be for some reason, they want to protect their love ones, but they just don't know that this will only leads to more heart broken to the other party.
i don't know why am i carrying out this issue, but i seriously hope that people do take love seriously, and not by hurting people and hurting themselves as well.
 

parents conference yeah...
its just not a good idea after all cause i almost cried actually.. haha
funny right?
who would cry on their parents lecture's day?
i am fine hearing all the comments that had been given by my lecturers,
but there's just one lecturer that i don't like as usual, my eald lecturer.
he just have to talk bout all my other subjects is it?
just don't like the way he do stuff... never did like =P
so what? so what if i just get the CGPA of 1.8?
 i know i need to study, but first, i need a plan right?
and guess what he said today? he said he is going to record everything we said during the speaking!
hate it so much much much!!! where did our privacy gone?
nah.. not gonna talk bout him anymore!
so i have a lot of works to do tomorrow!!!
lets list it out should we?
- biology the wave length of light that affects the number of bacteria in that area
- chemistry - finish the assignment again that lost by my previous lecturer
- read alibrandi (novel)
- write all the chapter reviews for saving francesca
- math's miscellaneous exercise
- study everyday in order to improve my english
- spend at least one hour to study chemistry everyday during the holidays =)
- same goes to biology, maths and psycho ^^

don't know why, i just started to love books =)
just don't like exams...

life, behavior, hallucination

Independent, why must i be independent?
why can't i just be dependent for a while, just a while...
i just need a shoulder to lean on,
to recharge my battery.
Is that a criminal too?
all i need now is just someone who i can talk to and a shoulder to lean on,
but nah.. i was never given a chance.
mom's advice are filling up the space in my head,
my head is so painful now, feel like exploding.
i know, studies are very important and it will always comes first no matter what.
but i am not a machine, even a machine needs to recharge their battery, right?
so do i, as a human.
firstly, nothing much on my birth day which i could only get the chance to swim.
and when someone asked me 'how was my birthday?' i don't even know what to answer them...
however, its still the best birthday that i ever had!
thanks to jun shu, ke xin and angel ^^
anyway... i just feel so stressed up.. but i promised my self not to complain anything about my life.
i just can't stand anymore!!!
Part of it is because of monday blues i guess =)
hopefully tomorrow will be a better day ^^