Its exactly how other people imagined here would be, not that 'good'. but it certainly depends on individual. For me, its absolutely a NO NO.. but what to do, parents not that rich, can't send me to other Uni or overseas. so just have to stay in m'sia to continue my studies with Mahsa! Say, the lecturers are not bad, just some of them need some attitude adjustment, just don't scold us even though we don't know how to answer the questions.. overall, they are great people :) i love them! but remember, this is just a foundation level, the degree courses lecturer may not be this good! now, why do i say this college is not good even if i love the lecturers here. Its not just about the lecturers when you enter a uni or college, its about the people, the students!!! we need to get along well in a college so that we are comfortable and we can be ourselves. Sadly, i'm not, i'm not happy at all... why?
i did get along quite well in the class at first, i talk to everyone in the class, there's always laughter and smile but it seemed to be getting lesser and lesser lately.. thats how it was last year too, but that time, i still had my few best friend that i can talk to, or even ask questions that i don't know how to answer. Now? not even one, when i was in the class sitting with my friends, there are just limited person who i can ask, and they are all sitting far far away from me. I felt as if i've lost my friends, i don't even have a single friends that i could ask help from. I can't find any best friends here who can help me. I'm felt lonely sometimes but not anymore cause i already adapted to the enviroment which if i don't know how to answer, i will think, think and think until i get the answer. Yup! that the way to survive in the society nowadays, we can't always depend on others.
Thats the friendship part, the love part, yea.. i did found a guy who loved me alot and he touched me. so he is basically the one who i'm always with now. the only one i can depend on :)
thats all for now... ^^
